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Tuesday, 8 November 2016

Perfectly Imperfect Me!

"I heard we live and die by the choices we make,
and there's only so much a person can take.

so remember life goes on,
and it hurt's when someone leaves and is gone.

Always remember keep your head up,
another door opens every time one is shut."


Such beautifully written lines that I read somewhere and it's so true...we do live and die by the choices we make in life, everything that happens with us teaches us a lesson...I have learnt that I'm not Perfect....I don't wish to be Perfect!! I want to be Happy! With all my shares of ups and downs I know I survived and I know everything that has ever happened in my life has taught me to move on and to be HAPPY! 

People say we should be strong, but I think it's okay to let your guards down once in a while, it's okay to cry, it's okay to be scared about the future because first of all we are not ROBOTS, we are living beings with feelings and nobody can ever expect you to be strong always and it is during such times, such low points in our lives that we really think about the choices we have made and try improving on them, If necessary. There is no such thing as a "PERFECT LIFE", if there is a life it will have its share of sorrows and joys! In the words of Ronan Keating..."Life is a rollercoaster, we've just gotta ride it!!"

I'm not perfect and I will never be...I don't want people to like me for their idea of a perfect person, rather I want them to like me for who I am...Perfectly imperfect ME! 

Tuesday, 11 October 2016

A thing or two about Tea!

Dilmah t Lounge: New Delhi, India
Address: Flat 44, First Floor, Khan Market, New Delhi
Cuisine: Cafe, Dessert Parlor
Must Try: Moroccon Ice Tea, Cheesy Mushroom waffles
Rating: 4 on 5



  
I'm not a tea lover and trust me people who know me can vouch for my love of coffee, but this trip to Delhi made me change my opinion about TEA! Yes, u read it right...I'm talking about TEA!! So after a long day of shopping and crazy stuff, my friends and I planned to go to Dilmah t Lounge for a small bite. Since we were in Khan market and had heard of this new cafe, we were very keen on trying it out.






Cheese Cake!
As we entered and chose a comfy spot the first thing we noticed was that there are phone chargers on every table, we had one too ( it was like god heard our prayers since our phone's battery was 15%) so as we were settling down we were served Rose with french vanilla iced-tea, the blissful rose fragrance with the vanilla extracts freshen you up immediately! 

Dilmah t lounge is a lounge for people who like experiencing new things without cribbing about the price they have to pay for the experience! The Menu card is pretty impressive and for a person like me who doesn't drink tea...it is a maze where I got lost! The staff was sweet enough to have patience while I chose my drink, can't say the same for my friends....they gave me the STARE! 
The Splash of colour is brilliant all over!
I ultimately chose the Darjeling tea and Cheesy mushroom waffles...big victory for me to finally make a decision, while my friends had already selected their drinks t-TK and Moroccan mint ice tea with a Baked Cheesecake with Rose and mint and Bun Maska!  The service is quick, we didn't have to wait for more than 10 minutes for our order.
The Cheesy mushroom waffle was plated neatly and the amount of cheese and mushrooms on it was sufficient for cheese lovers like me! 
The cheesecake with rose and mint was cooked perfectly and the rose and mint flavours together worked to elevate the taste of the cheesecake, the friendly ambience made the experience more fun and memorable. Next trip to Delhi means going for more fun experiences to this lounge and more stories!

Wednesday, 11 May 2016

I am ME!!

Image result for thank yourselfLately I've been pretending like everything's okay and that everything around me hasn't collapsed.
But this morning I woke up and I realized I was the one who Collapsed!

Taking charge of my life has been tough, there have been moments when I have actually wanted to leave everything and run away! There have been days when it looks like a cake walk, I have had people in my life who have seen  me and stood by me in all my lows and celebrated all my highs!

To all those people a big THANKYOU! 

These few months I have learnt a valuable lesson that in the end I need to have peace with myself, I need to stop running after what was and will never be a part of my life again!  Its a tough phase but I'll get there! 

I have learnt that the people who say they will stay till the end are the ones who leave, so do not depend on anyone but yourself!

I have learnt that instead of getting to know others, I need to know myself! I need to know what makes me laugh, what makes me cry, what makes me angry, what I love! I need to be my best friend again! 

I have learnt that my own thoughts are my magic wand and my belief is the magic spell needed to turn my fears into courage. My children are my strength and the only reason to get up and get moving!

Image result for dance of lifeI have learnt that I am my own soul-mate, I am a soul and my mate, I STAY! 

I have learnt that I am a POEM, I flow in my own rhythm and rhyme, only a few can understand!

I have learnt I am a Dancer and my life is my Dance

I have learnt that its my life and I am responsible for making it happy, so no matter what is going on right now, the ending will be a happy one!

Wednesday, 9 March 2016

What Would I Do For You



I would do just about anything you'd ask,
For you there's nothing I wouldn't do, there's no such task.

I would walk without my shoes to the end of the Earth,
I would give up anything I had to, to teach you self worth.

I would hold your hand every minute of every day,
But I won't because I know you need to find your own way.

I would surely bear the heartache of your first love that's real,
Even though I can't, I will naturally feel as you feel.

I would sell my soul if it would keep you happy forever,
I would give my right arm to keep us forever together.

I would run a hundred miles up-hill in the rain,
Just to guarantee that you will never feel pain.

I would laugh with you even if I was sad,
I will give you a smile even if I'm mad.

I can only accept your mistakes with a grin on my face,
I will guide you in correcting them, but at your own pace.

I will guide you through life, as this world can get quite wild,
Just don't you ever forget that you will always be my child.


Surfing the net I came across this poem by Jayne Sena, I could so relate to it.... Naman and Dimple when you do read this.....I would really want you to know that I am Sorry....I know I'm not the PERFECT MOM and I scold both of you, but know this I love you with all my life and nothing can ever lessen my love for the two of you. 

Yes I agree our life has changed drastically, but know this....the three of us are doing real good and we will swim through it all with our heads held high! I cant wait for the two of you to grow up and share with me all the things that happen in your life, just the way you do now everyday. Always remember, there is nothing I wouldn't do for the two of you but babies the world is a very tricky place, be nice to people but do not let them use your niceness to their advantage and your loss.

I am here always for any advice and any talk....I'm here as your mother, father and your friend! Your first crush, your first heartbreak, your first everything....we are in it together and we will always correct each other when either one of us are wrong! I love it when you trouble me, tease me like I'm younger to you two and when its my birthday...you two surprise me by acting so mature!! We are a weird crazy set of three and that madness in the three of us will never die, we were born to be wild and crazy which we are and will continue to be....so no matter what happens in life, keep this craziness alive, trust me when I say this it gets one out with ease through the unimaginable!!

When you grow up and start a life of your own...remember for me you will still be the little babies I held in my hands years ago, I will still correct you if you go wrong, I will still fight with you, I will still tease you but most of all....I will still Love You!!!

Always be the sweet, wild, crazy set of kids you are.....your father will always be proud of you!!

Tuesday, 19 January 2016

I CHOOSE TO LIVE!

 You Chose 

You chose.
You chose.
You chose.

You chose to give away your love.
You chose to have a broken heart. 
You chose to give up. 
You chose to hang on.

You chose to react.
You chose to feel insecure.
You chose to feel anger.
You chose to fight back.
You chose to have hope.

You chose to be naïve. 
You chose to ignore your intuition.
You chose to ignore advice.
You chose to look the other way. 
You chose to not listen. 
You chose to be stuck in the past. 

You chose your perspective. 
You chose to blame. 
You chose to be right.
You chose your pride. 
You chose your games.
You chose your ego.
You chose your paranoia. 
You chose to compete.
You chose your enemies.
You chose your consequences.

You chose.
You chose.
You chose.
You chose.

However, you are not alone. Generations of women in your family have chosen. Women around the world have chosen. We all have chosen at one time in our lives. We stand behind you now screaming: 

Choose to let go.
Choose dignity. 
Choose to forgive yourself.
Choose to forgive others.
Choose to see your value.
Choose to show the world you’re not a victim.
Choose to make us proud.” 
― Shannon L. Alder


I came across this poem by Shannon L Alder and just loved it....we choose things that shape up our life....I chose to marry a wonderful man who gave me the best gift ever....my two beautiful children.

 Starting a new life with my children is still not a cake walk but we are trying, little baby steps at a time, they look at me for strength while I look at them because they are my strength. Our loved ones can help us but ultimately it is the three of us who need to live our own life, nobody can do it for us. I realise that we are not Victims of fate, rather we are survivors and we only know how to move on....Life is beautiful, everyday is a new beginning and we should keep it that way. My 32 year life has taught me that life is too short and precious to hold grudges or anger...let it go!

LIVE in the present, our choices shaped our life to what it is today so stop complaining and do something about it! Everyday you wake up, thank god to give you another day to make new choices, hold on to those choices whether bad or good, because bad choices have given us lessons to be learnt and good choices have given us opportunities to move forward.

I have chosen to not sit and cry, rather to move ahead and LOVE... love life, love the flowers, the colours, the wind messing my hair, the little arguments with my children over clothes and food, the bed time stories and goodnight hugs, giggles and kisses......THIS is life and this is what I choose. 

As I sit wondering what this new year has to offer me and my kids, I realised it is I who needs to show the world what I can do, because it is not the year that matters...ultimately it is what I can do to make this year different from the last one. As long as we are breathing, it is a new beginning everyday.

With a whole new life ahead of us, we have to be strong enough to face all the challenges that come our way and win! Yes WIN, Succeed!!

I have met people who tell me this is a new chapter in my life....I do not agree, this is a whole new book...a book that will be written by me and my children, we have to ensure it is written beautifully and with LOVE!

Saturday, 9 January 2016

Life.....a simple request!



Sometimes I feel why do we grow up? It's better to stay a baby away from the way life works...I totally agree that life is a roller coaster and once you enter the game of life you have to play it till the end...but why!? Why can it not be simple??  We meet people and the ones we are comfortable with stay for a short while leaving us with memories, whereas the ones we don't want end up staying for a longer time...LIFE be simple! 

Life I love you a lot I know you will be full of ups and downs always and trust me I still love you, but I request you please be simple for sometime! Why do you have to be so dramatic always, I thank you for all the people you made me meet till date...I've had awesome times with all and lessons too...but now just be simple, I'm trying to keep pace but you're simply making me realise I'm getting old for this game and I don't want to feel that...I want to enjoy this ride now, don't make me sick. You made me meet people who helped me, in their own respective ways, mould into the woman I am today and I Thankyou with all my heart..but I'm tired now so PLEASE be simple!!

Sunday, 25 October 2015

Stop saying Why ME!!!??


Yeah!! Once again proved Life is funny and it definitely doesn't work the way we want it too.....in these few months I have definitely turned wiser and more practical...sometimes I feel I can open my own counselling office!! 

Yeah so the most important realisation is that WE work according to how our life wants us to and not the other way around!! We struggle, fight and do all sorts of nonsense just to get our life in order....sometimes we succeed, but other times we end up screwing it up more!! Naaah!! I'm not a philosopher but yeah practical thinker after all the jolts life gives. Someone has very rightly said that instead of cribbing about what you do not have, just stop and look around at what you have and learn to appreciate it!! After fighting with God and my own life to get it on track for months I finally gave up!! Yup! Gave up! Instead of fighting I decided to just go with the flow...I sat down and looked around, I saw my kids and I smiled genuinely in ages! I decided to stop fighting and give myself another chance at starting life afresh, like a new beginning and instead of saying WHY ME? I said TRY ME!! I know it would take time for life to be as it was and trust me I'm okay with everything as long as my kids are happy...they are the strength that keeps me going on and keeps me strong! Like every cloud has a silver lining I'm sure mine does too and I'm just waiting to see it because even if faintly i know I'm going to go grab it with both hands and never let it go!!